I have times (and places) where I am enabled to think at my best.
1- In the shower. I need to have some way to record all the epiphanies I have in there..
2- Cleaning, but while vacuuming especially.
3- Right as I am about to fall asleep.
So it should come as no surprise that ideas were flooding my little brain as I was scrubbing, totally delving into my “Spring” cleaning yesterday.
Yes, it was Monday, and I clean on Monday as we all know.. but I was really on one yesterday. I tore apart our closet, bathroom, and bedroom and had at.
It was fun.
(I know, I am sick.)
I also had music on, (a must for just about any activity at our house) and right as my mind was going to solve all of the world’s problems, our song came on.
Now I have to explain, we have A LOT of songs. Different songs for different points in our relationship.
- Head over heels hit us both at the same time on that drive home from the life-changing trip to Lake Powell, it was quite fitting as it all went so fast.. “Something happens and I’m head over heels..”
- Bread, because that was also during that life-changing trip to Powell, and the lyrics in that one song, fit so well. (It also helped that Austin played it over and over and over again as Merrill and I talked on the sun deck.)
- Saved the Best for last is another one that kind of just fit, because of all the “bad timing” moments we have had relationship –wise since we were 15, we managed to save the best for last (cheesy, I know).
But this one song that came on, means more to me than any other.
Merrill deemed it “our song”.
I will never forget the first time he played it for me, it was after he made me a DVD slideshow, a much better version of a “mix tape”.
I sat, listening to the lyrics of this song, watching as the pictures from our life together flashed by faster than I would like it to, and crying.
Crying because I was so amazed that someone felt this way about me.
We had been married not quite five years, and I should have known of his feelings for me, but of that magnitude? It simply blew me away.
I must also say, that every year gets better than the last, that the love I thought was so great, and so strong to begin with, only gets better and better.
So I sat, listening to the words, yet again, while I was scrubbing the tub, feeling even more gratitude for this man who loves me, for his thoughtfulness, for his kindness, for his unselfish ways, for the life we share, for how far we have come together.
“Oh, how blessed we are, to share in everything.. every time I see your face, I’m reminded, of what it means to be alive.”
Geez I love him!